not us

i'm
so
stupid
i torture myself
by watching them
fall in love
them
not us
them
she's beautiful
she's smart
she's funny
i'm invisible
i'm unknown
i'm creepy
i'm not her
them
not us
them
i'm a idiot
i can't shut my eyes
and turn my head
i just sit there
and watch
watch them
them
not us
them
them
with their cute little words
and cozy little memories
them, their's
not us, our's
forget
ignore and forget......
ignore them
forget them
forget the dream
that was us





oh, and i decided that i'm not going to write a poem everyday. cuz writing 3 in one entry is too much for my 17 year old burnt out brain. so, i'll just keep writing until there is a month's worth :)