a year or two ago i'd hate who i've become :)

i'm a city girl
though now
i live in the country
came here kicking and screaming
stayed here....just screaming
but now
i blast lady gaga
and jason aldean
i strut in high heels
and cowboy boots
i don studs and sequins
and flannel shirts
i am amazed by city lights
and bon fires
i dance in clubs
and in barns

i do me
i get r done


i'm calling it free verse. hey, i'm not claiming to be a poet here, i'm better at prose :)

this one's for yesterday

so, busy with a band contest with what is not technically yesterday, and i'm kinda tired so i'm just gonna write a short little haiku for my daily poem :) okie dokie smokie? good.

mister sandman please
take me to the land of dreams
sing sweet lullabies



there, and now, good night!! :)

my feet

Curled up little toes that cold April morning
Going left right left for the very first time
Dancing on my daddy's feet
Ticked by mommy's red nails
Clinging tightly to the horse's side
Running through grandpa's woods
Jumping off grandma's stairs
Stepping on tacs and toys
Splashing in the Mississippi
Walking away from everything I've ever known
Dragging through a few stubborn years
Running towards my best friends
Running away from those creepy guys
Running from getting caught
Stuffing into high heels
Stumbling up the stairs to prom
Stepping onto the stage
Dancing and playing with flags and rifles under the light
My feet have taken me everywhere,

and they plan to still take me very far

my friend challenged me....

so, i have this friend, she's probably the only person who's eyes have ever graced this page, but i'm going to write as if they haven't been. she said that she would like to see me write one poem everyday for a month, and, i can't guarantee that i will always, because my life is extremely busy right now, but i'll try :)

running out of time

My heart and my mind can never agree.
Logic and desire,
a raging battle inside of me.
I always had time,
push things off until i decided to make it all fit and rhyme.
But now i'm approaching the end,
the curtains are closing,
should i exit stage right or stage left?
I wish i could see the future,
see exactly who i'm supposed to be,
set myself free.
Too many what if's.
What if i choose wrong?
What if i don't make it?
If i settled, would i be happy?
Or at least able to fake it?
Do i follow my dreams,
or do i follow certainty?
I'm not strong enough to declare sovereignty!
Somebody, please,
tell me what to do,
tell me where to go.
They all want answers,
now now now.
But I stare blankly at them,
how how how?
How do i decide?
When every day my mind and heart divide?
So which do i follow?
My mind, which makes perfect sense,
maybe i'll get that white picket fence.
Or my heart, filled with that little child,
who's dreams are so naive and wild.
The answer is clear,
but there's still the impenetrable fear.
I could rob myself of everything I've ever wanted,
the most heinous, safest, easiest crime,
I need to choose,
and i'm running out of time.



there, it sucks. but it's there :)