i quit

i have momentarily (although quite possibly permanently) quit on the one poem a day for a month thing. sorry, i just can't. maybe some will pop up here, just not gonna commit to anything, never liked commitment anyway.
so i'll just go back to blogging, i like that much better :)

guess who just had their first day of their senior year?! this kid! it's so weird, i'm almost there, 179 more days, and i'll be done. Done. Me, that tiny little kindergartener, looking up at the bus driver with eyes as big as africa, stretching my little legs up the huge steps, terrified to go to school. absolutely terrified.
now, i'm almost (and i said ALMOST) terrified to leave. Well, not necessarily to leave, but to have to go out there, alone, by myself, make choices that will, without question, impact my life forever. I've never had to do that before. From grades K-12 everything was planned out for me, I got to pick a few classes as I got older, pick some clubs, blah blah blah. Now, I have to decide on a college, pay for it, decide on a major, a job, all this stuff I have to do myself. Could I do it? Yeah, probably. But it's scary, I don't want to make the wrong choice.
It's ok to be scared of making choices i've realized, but it's not ok to not make them. I will take risks, and sometimes I'll fall flat on my face, and other times it'll be the best thing I ever did. I will make stupid and genius choices. But I won't know anything, anything, until I just close my eyes, and jump.
So here's to me, jumping :)