Goodbye 2010

I remember saying in 2009, this is it. This is the year it's all gonna change.
Looking back, I would say, no, nothing's different. But when I look closer, I see so, so, so, many things changed. Things I wanted to change, things I didn't, and somethings didn't change, even though I wanted them too. But this year taught me a lot. I could not tell you how many breakdowns I had repeating to myself, I can't do this! I can't do this! Whether it be color guard during the summer preparing for our state fair, homework, routines, dealing with people, but I can tell you that I did it. Every single time. Maybe not gracefully, I dropped a few flags, missed a few counts, failed a few tests, but I always did it.
I also became more sure of myself I guess you could say. I always said I didn't care what other people thought of me, and to a degree that was true, but I think this year it became a little more true. I quit trying to label myself, quit trying to fit into a certain mold that I thought was who I really was, and just started living. Quit worrying about what I looked like, what I sounded like, who I was pleasing, I just cared about the fun. I quit worrying about things I couldn't change, if I was late, I was late. It didn't matter if I obsessed about it, I was still going to be late, checking the clock every two minutes wasn't going to make it stop or slow down, so deal with it.
This year was a lot of fun. I did a lot of little things, and that's what was most important. I meet a lot of people, got closer with a lot of people, and lost some people. But I'm ok.
Thank you 2010, thank you.
But now I'm going to say goodbye, and now that I know what I know now, 2011 is going to rock some serious socks off!
I bid you adieu!

We're about to get controversial....

Ok, let me start out by saying I'm a actually pretty tolerant of other beliefs and religions. And I expect others to do the same. I personally don't consider myself a Christian. I believe in God, and try to follow him as best I know how. I just don't go with organized religion. No one really knows about that stuff. If you sit down with God every day for afternoon tea, please, hook me up cuz I've got a couple questions. But no, you don't. And I really get tired of people telling me what's what about this and that, when they have no idea. My pastor told me, the bible told me. Ok, well the bible was written by a bunch of monks how ever many years ago, thousands of years after the events happened, so basically the bible, is a big written down version of telephone. Sorry if I'm a little skeptical, I just find it a little hard to believe that somewhere down the line it didn't get changed a little bit.
But you know what, I could be wrong. I could be completely, totally, utterly, wrong. I am humble enough to admit that. But I'm not going to be scared into any religion just because somebody says I'll go to hell if I don't.
Now, my friend recently showed me a video. Long story short, it was about a boy who never told his friend about Jesus, and then the friend died and went to hell, and then he sent his friend a letter screaming at him because he didn't tell him about Jesus. The purpose was to let everyone know that you don't want blood on your hands when someone dies and you didn't share Jesus with them. And it got me thinking, why do people share with others their relationship with Christ? Judging by this video, it doesn't seem like it's for that person's good, it's for your guilty conscious. You don't care what happens to your friend, you care whether or not it's your fault. That's the thing that really gets me about a lot of Christians. Most don't do what is right for the sake of it being the right thing to do, they do it for brownie points in the afterlife. I always thought the reason for why you did something was more important then what you did.
To all my nonexistent readers out there, I really am not trying to bash Christians. I'm just bashing the ways certain ones do certain things. No group has members that are all the same, so I don't mean to offend anyone. I'm just saying, practice what you preach. If you preach love and equality because that's what Pastor Dude says, then practice love and equality. For everyone. Don't extend it to the members of your church and you religion and then stop. Don't stop at gays, don't stop at atheists, don't stop at that dirty man on the side of the rode, don't stop, ever. Don't reach out for people just so you can show them off to God and say, "I converted this one over here!"
One love man, one love.
And remember,
we're all pink on the inside!!  :)

Oh! I forgot something!

NOTRE DAME BEAT USC!!!!
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
me so happy, i almost threw up watching it. eep!

                  

Shhh, I'm a bad kid :)

Ok, so I'm in school right now, horrible I know. My heart is pounding. I can barely stand it.
I can tell you what I should be doing, but that may give away my current location, and some of these teachers are snitches man.
So, I'm bored. And just thought I'd stop in to say hi.
HI!
Ok, bye bye now.....

me encanta bailar!

I think it's appropriate to make my first post about the homecoming dance, no? Start things out on a positive note.
So, the dance was UH-MAZ-ZAH-ZING! If I may quote The Benchwarmers. And we won the game too! Big thing for our football team.
It was pretty crowded for a school who's student body probably doesn't top 500, there were lights everywhere, strobes, freaking awesome. We danced and we danced, laughed, and totally lived like rockstars (minus the booze and sex) for an hour and a half. Yeah, the game went a little long. Definetly one of the best, if not the best, homecoming of my high school career.

Somethings MISSING from the dance: (nothing's perfect, I mean come on)
-Dynamite by Taio Cruz
-Teenage Dream by Katy Perry
-Take it Off by Kesha (no, i refuse to add that trashy $)
-My nose ring, well, it was there, just stashed away in my purse because it decided not to go in after I had to take it out for the performance. Hopefully getting it repierced as soon as possible.
-Crank That by Souja Boy-which is really surprising, but I think that song got burned out, so I'm glad I didn't have to do a side motorcycle move all over the floor in my slippery socks.


But seriously, I'm gonna be going on that high from the dance for awhile! haha
Drama practices start soon, it's October, which means fall is here and HALLOWEEN! Life is good. XD