Goodbye 2010

I remember saying in 2009, this is it. This is the year it's all gonna change.
Looking back, I would say, no, nothing's different. But when I look closer, I see so, so, so, many things changed. Things I wanted to change, things I didn't, and somethings didn't change, even though I wanted them too. But this year taught me a lot. I could not tell you how many breakdowns I had repeating to myself, I can't do this! I can't do this! Whether it be color guard during the summer preparing for our state fair, homework, routines, dealing with people, but I can tell you that I did it. Every single time. Maybe not gracefully, I dropped a few flags, missed a few counts, failed a few tests, but I always did it.
I also became more sure of myself I guess you could say. I always said I didn't care what other people thought of me, and to a degree that was true, but I think this year it became a little more true. I quit trying to label myself, quit trying to fit into a certain mold that I thought was who I really was, and just started living. Quit worrying about what I looked like, what I sounded like, who I was pleasing, I just cared about the fun. I quit worrying about things I couldn't change, if I was late, I was late. It didn't matter if I obsessed about it, I was still going to be late, checking the clock every two minutes wasn't going to make it stop or slow down, so deal with it.
This year was a lot of fun. I did a lot of little things, and that's what was most important. I meet a lot of people, got closer with a lot of people, and lost some people. But I'm ok.
Thank you 2010, thank you.
But now I'm going to say goodbye, and now that I know what I know now, 2011 is going to rock some serious socks off!
I bid you adieu!